9:22 PM
fac cip was not bad, at least now i think the junior class has rather fun and friendly people(= and afterall, its good to rubbish with your classmates once in a while, esp when all you do in school is like rush for lectures, chiong tutorials and mug.
on a separate note, i just heard of a crisis that cgssb is currently facing. maybe i shld talk to the others o7ers, but i guess they're too busy with their own syfs now. hmmmm, shall find some time like during the march hols to go down and take a look. and yeah, february is such a problematic month. but no, i wont collapse like tt, i.am.strong.
i suddenly realised tt todays the last day of feb. but i believe the end of a not-so-good month means the beginning of a better one. hence, march ftw! kill blocks, own hymn+overture, be the best problemsolver, be a better kid.
/edit(o1o3). havent laughed so much in a long while, thankyou Js and 6f(= havent seen gor in a while too, hope he is doing a super fab job at esplanade now(= havent watched soccer in a while toooo, but theres manu later, awesome stuff=D and, lets go march!(=
10:10 PM
alright, i think i've been a dao and b*tchy and extremely unfriendly stupid girl for the past few days. at least i think so, but if you think theres nothing wrong with my attitude and all, maybe we're not close enough. but tts good anw, you wont think cheeshan is some *^@$^%*!#&~ girl.
i've no idea why ive been getting pissed off so easily, even if its just one random statement or one trival issue. sounds like some kid tts always discontented with life? idk. but im glad i didnt retaliate or just scream at innocent parties. yeah, im terribly sorry if you were affected by me, i dont want things to be like tt either. i guess im just accumulating too many issues and stuff, and i'll find a good time to bao4 and be the same old auntie soon. but faccip is not helping at allll, whole weekend gone, and theres technically no time to be a loner, away from all these rubbish. not faccomm's fault, cause its an annual kind of thing, and definitely not weihan's too, cause i know she is trying really hard.
if you think you're a kind soul, you can prepare to catch all the tears. thankyou(=
11:14 PM
LIMELIGHT 2009!<333
yayy, im really proud of the alumni, for having put up a great performance tonight, after like 1 month of practices hehh(= and the cgssb alumni members are alll so hyper and funloving hahaha, totally explains why music has no boundaries (referring to ahem age actl=P) and im proud of the main band tooo, for a job well done and im sure you girls will do great for syf!=D
but it was quite rush-y before the concert and i was acting like a kanchong spider (quotes gz) in the afternoon. chionged home to get all the concert stuff after class and chionged back to get my horn and wait for sweechen. THANKYOUUU HCHORNS ( ESP JASON AND EDWIN) FOR BRINGING MY HORN OVER TO SALT!=D i would have collapsed and died if my horn was still at college hahaha. and i was being a noob directionless senior i bet sweechen is secretly laughing at me for tt. we were like in a rush and i was trying to figure out which bus goes to newton (arh yes call me lu4 chi1 number1=_=) in the end i decided tt i shld request for assistance hahaha, so i called the first person in my inbox hahaha (i wasnt finding an excuse to call you excuse meeee! then again, i dont need to find a reason to call you=/) alright yeah, THANKYOU GOR FOR GIVING DIRECTIONS, I PROMISE I WONT LAUGH AT YOUR LOUSY GPS ANYMORE=D
concert was awesome like i said, and it feels really good to be up on stage with a group of people that you love and miss so much and a group of conductors who gives you the homely feeling. it sort of made me love band and the feeling of playing a horn again, since i've been feeling quite tired of band and bandstuff recently. SO. im looking forward to hc band practs again and we'll make it together. simply cause we belong to the stage.
11:28 PM
im truly thankful for the best sectionmates in the world<33
2:05 PM
i dont like to keep stuffs to myself. i'll have to tell someone eventually, lest i explode or sth. but i havent told anyone yet this time round. even my fulltime rubbishbin (just take it tt you're on leave kay=P) and my bffs as well. it seems like i lost the art of expressing myself freely suddenly. i no longer know how to put things properly, or know how to give a more cheery face. maybe im not a good friend afterall, quote gor (even if he meant it as a joke). im really sorry bff, if i seemed as though i blackfaced you or didnt sound as happy as usual. i didnt want to make you feel upset, but i couldnt make myself sound lively as well, so i chose to shut up. if you're feeling bad, please dont. yeah, because as friends, i'll always be there to back you up and because we're such close friends, theres almost nothing that can make me pissed/disappointed with you. and this is a phase in life we all have to go through, just tt you're facing it the first ( quite normal since you turn 18 first!). no worries, cause i believe everything will turn out fine, btwn all of us. we'll make it, we wont break it<333
feeling quite ranty now, maybe dinner tmr is a good time to rant. but no, shush cheesh, you're not supposed to rant anymore.
10:46 PM
it feels good to be back at cgssb(=
though chionging down from hwach after sectionals was quite tiring and i was so tempted to just alight at the busstop outside my place, i must say ystd's combine was awesome(= not really the music or the tone of the alumni, more of the people and mrschua and mrlee. and mrlee is an awesome conductor seriously, a caring 'grandfatherly' one too. he saw my untouched sausage roll and went, "you havent had your dinner? go have it now, go go go!" hahaha, maybe it seemed nothing much to others, but it meant alot to a cgssbit. any cgssbit i would say, and its that kind of love within us that brought us all the golds and whatnots(=
on a separate note, we'll be starting almost from scratch from now on, since the new j1s just joined us today. though it seems like taking a few steps back in this syf journey, i hope we can pull through it as one eventually(= lets go hcband!<333
10:35 PM
HAPPY VDAY ALL!=D
dinner with c2clique at crystaljade just now to celebrate the single awareness day, quote sandra(= it was really nice to see everyone again, okay maybe not, since lily is like everywhere, and mich is here for h3 twice a week hehh=P but we havent talked like that since after promos last year. talked abt friends, trust between friends(=P), and of course the usual bgr stuffs. had lots of fun laughing at lily's i-cant-hide-secrets face, and the spotchecking of phones. figured that we were taking up the space of people who were queuing outside after a while, so we headed off to starbucks(= cheesecake was YUMMMMM=D ohh tts besides the point. continued gossiping, something which i havent done truly this year=P left at ten-ish and walked with lily to the 145stop. talked abt family this time round, and felt a little... idk, wu2 nai4? i guess tts the more appropriate word to use. ohh welll.
on a separate note, walked home after tt and past the cemetary area near my place as usual. felt a little scared suddenly hahaha. idk why in the beginning, then i realised i usually have gor entertain me on my way home at nights, and obviously i dont get frightened at all cause i'd be busy laughing at him(= and then i concluded that i really miss him alot tsk. i hope he is fine now anyway hehh=D
2:02 PM
"eternal friends do not exist"-- '15'.
come to think of it, its really true. shall try to maintain these friendships, for as long as they can last.
10:24 PM
100.
when the whole of 2oo8 seemed so short, the past 100 seemed like millions of years.
9:34 PM
actually, its nice to see the new j1s(=
to think chai and i were still ranting about how our class benches will be halved, how school will be super crowded hehh. but seeing them in their ogs today somehow cheered me up quite a bit, i wonder why. brought back many fond memories i guess, would have crashed one of them with liuzhen if not for h3 honestly=P and edwin was telling me how his ogl called him at 11+pm on saturday, waking up his whole family and all hahaha. totally reminded me of my urm beloved botak ogl hohoho=PPPP cause he called at 11+ too my mum was like, 'ehh your call, its a GUY.'=_=' quite amused actl. ohwelllll, no more orientation, lots of seriouswork, band, h3 tsktsktsk. no, i shant complain, neither shall i rant, as promised(((=
i hope alumni turns out well, i promise to commit to it and turn up for 75% of the practs hehh. and cindy shall keep her promise and buy me dinner on wednesday=D