10:57 AM
went back to crescent after physics pract today to kajiao the OM team with karen=PP went to get muffin and mocha frap for honglaoshi and missng as promised last thursday(= couldnt find honglaoshi at first, so i decided to collect my testi at the GO first. apparently laoshi was in the GO. haha, this is like wu2 xin1 cha1 liu3 liu3 cheng1 ying1=P met the OM team and missng at the ensemble room and they already started spontaneous. oh i think mrgoh and msnorliza very funny. the way they explained the verbal question was so hilarious even missng and mrtan were laughing. then did structure with karen, because missng said we should compete with the juniors. haha, so scary, but we won in the end=DD hahaha. talked to mrloh and missng for a while before heading home and we realised that crescent's new pe attire is...argh=/ gosh, i think "crescentian" is wayyy better than "CRESCENT girls' school" and the font is like those fedex shirts haha. tsk, whats wrong man=/
anw, I LOVE 4C2 LOADS<33333
so thats the list at the foyer[express chinese is not included apparently=/] and im so proud of my class(= mrs ow was so happy hahaha=DD
10:04 AM
submitted my jae registration yesterday. yay(= like finally, after lots of consideration. so its hwachong, nj, ac for the first three. and yay, i'll have lily, angelia, jingyi[most prob], nicole... for another two years=DD and of course, og25 and o8s6F as well((=
then again, nothing is confirmed till 19th feb. oh well=/
/things're just not the same anymore. it'll never be.
12:30 PM
2007. YEAR OF VICTORY=DD
i guess almost everyone felt this way. syf in april was the love, for the band-its and the dancers especially. the gold medal was the best birthday gift i've received, even better than 2005's(= and the happiest thing was, we left the band knowing that we did something real for the band. apart frm that, all the other sec4s stepped down without any regrets, because we achieved what we wanted(= Os period was tough, but we all pulled through together, as the last batch of olevel students under mrslee. and we did her proud, yesterday. the feeling was really great, especially when you know that your closest friends did really well and you get to share their joy(= and, as we officially graduated frm crescent yesterday, we can proudly say that we've done something great for crescent, as a cohort, as a batch of crescentians=DDD
i've seen the stats yesterday, and realised that we did really well. wheeee>.< and hcl distinction rate was 93%, highest in singapore apparently(= i think honglaoshi, linlaoshi, zhaolaoshi and zhanglaoshi must be really glad(= and c2 did exceptionally well=D 100%dist for emaths, close to 100%dist for amaths, 70%dist for english, 96%dist for geog, 97%dist for bio, 100%dist for chums(ss+hist). i love my class, they totally rawk=DDD
amidst all the joy and relief, i realised im still unable to make up my mind, even up till now. talked to lily abt it, found out shes facing the same problem too. maybe we're just not used to studying in top schools, maybe we're still in holiday mood, or maybe we're just not up to it. its not only the results, but also the determination to hang on and the willingness to put in much more effort as compared to how much we put in for Os. though we love the people and the fun, we know that the next 2years will be tough, and i seriously have no idea if we can pull through it. and after so many little little incidents, i dont know what to do now. oh well, shall think abt it later.
//some things are just so screwed up. i think i've just lost a rather close friend, someone as close as a brother. dang=/
1:36 PM
CRESCENT RAWKS<333
i love crescent so much i dont want to leave. hahaha, and i love lily's birthdate so much i'll remember it for life.
today started off really badly cause i was freaking out early in the morning. and my reaction when i saw lily was not wishing her but to cry instead. goshh, im sorry lily, a horrible birthday present=/ oh then i totally couldnt concentrate during maths&gp and i think eliseus thought i was mad or something. and xinling&huilee kept saying my face was damn glum. hahah, sorry people=/
travelling back to crescent was a torture. 111 took so long to come and it made us realise that 'deng3 dai4 shi4 tong4 ku3 de4"=P hahaha. so when we finally reached crescent, we were welcomed by lots and lots of hugs=D went to find honglaoshi with lily and she said,"ni3 men2 zuo4 de2 bu2 cuo4" but i was still not exactly convinced. then miss ng came along and said,"my om girls did well." and mrsyip&mrstang said they were very happy. but we still werent really assured=/
then came 2pm, when mrstang started the boring jae peocedures and all. we were so tensed up and i think no one even bothered to pay close attention to it=/ after that, mrslim, the new principal whom i dont know who she is, started talking abt the "excellent" results and all. after all the cheers, she finally decided to show us the top scorers. i think 3scholars topped this year with perfect score. 5minutes later, the list of people with 8a1s [w/o express chinese] was projected onto the screen. i was so happyyyyyyy kay. cause there was eunice, fiona, LILY & LIWEN. goshh, im so so so proud of them. happy birthday lily!!!! bet that was the best birthday present you've received man((= then lily came over to hug me and cry and cry cause she was so happy. i was crying with her such that i didnt realise the 7a1s/2a2s list was already there. so i just so happened to turn and skimmed through the list and BOOM, i saw my name. haha, it was so funny cause everyone around me alr saw except for blur me who was still crying with lily. and 2seconds after i saw my name, i started screaming and crying like mad. it was then i realised karen, sukeerthi and szewai were one of the top scorers too! so the four of us went up together, cause our register numbers were 11,12,13 and 14 respectively=P it was damn cool(((= oh and when i hugged ms azilah, she said,"you're the first band girl to come up." yayness, and heng went up like a few minutes after that. loves horn section=D okay. apart frm that, michelle, jingyi got 6;bell, keon, brina got 7 and our class did really well. so 3cheers for 4c2`o7=))
so yeah, i've gotten my results and i think i roughly know where i want to be. and of course, i must thank many many many people((=
thankyou family[plus extended family] for all the smileys, luck and encouragement=D
thankyou og, for all the wellwishes in the morning and the messages, namely yixiao, jihao, shoukee, howard, ruiling, jiamin, yisheng, eric... ...
thankyou ct, for all the attempts to make me laugh and less tensed up, namely xinling, huilee, jiahui, fransisca, eliseus, jeremy, kailiang, colin, jason... ...
thankyou 6F seniors, for all the luck, namely michelle, tingwei, my angel... ...
thankyou crescentians for all the hugs and love, namely lily(!!), angelia, edwyna, nicole, rachel, liwei, xinliang, lydia, gloria, jane, gail, jieling, heng, pris, mich, liwen, brina, wenjun, darli, jeanne, bell, keon, lam, zifang, yuexi, sandra, huiping, szewai, karen, carren, waiteng, yanting, bernette, jinghuai, lili, qiaoyi, adel, emi... ...
thankyou juniors for being there to give us your support, namely sweechen, keziah, roslina, germaine, anne, isabelle, xiangyi, diana, tessa, mavis... ...
thankyou cindy, for freaking out with us since morning, for being there to share our joy and for all the hugs. im so grateful to have you around in hc, always comforting me when im down, and always[almost] listening to my whines(((((=
thankyou kangjie, for always being there to be my emo trashbin, for hearing me rant for the past week and for all the random talks which took my mind off all the stress and pressure. you've been really great, as an ogl, a senior and a friend. yay=DDD
thankyou crescentteachers(!!!), for going through the whole process of Os with us, always guiding us and reminding us of the impt concepts despite being all worn out and tired. y'all are the best teachers one can ever have((= and i'll rmb all of you for the hardwork and effort put in to give us such fabulous results today>.< THANKYOU, ALOT.
11:37 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GZ&DENISE<333333
24012008. if lily isnt a j1, she must be wondering why everyones putting her birthdate on their blogs=P so yeah, olevel results will be out this thursday, 24thjan, aka in less than 48hours' time. oh and this is the confirmed date, because the press, the newspaper and hc said so.i think im like numbed towards this already. like after the tremor last sunday*stares hard at certain people, certain school* and after all the ranting over the week, yeah. but although im quite numbed already, i still talk abt it every now and then. then again, who doesnt? its as though my reputation is at stake. [sounds so serious=/] okay, not that bad but anyone in the right mind would be freaking out and thinking abt everything bad i guess. its not being pessimistic or what, just low self-esteem=/ and apart frm that, i really want to do crescent proud. and im sure we want others to know that crescentians arent lousy people. CRESCENTIAN PROUD-TO-BE=DDD
so yeah, in less than 48hours' time, i'd be freezing in the auditorium, staring at mrkoh, squeezing szewai's hands and praying really hard. hahaha, sounds so scary huhh, but thats what i forsee on the actual day, which i think im like 90% accurate>.< i'd be bringing along all the hugs and wellwishes from everyone at home, at hc[maybe=P], crescentians and teachers. i really hope to bring back good news((=
oh yeah, many thanks again to all those who cared and those who listened. you know who you are, and im extremely grateful to have you with me all these while<333
"每当我需要依靠你
你一定会在这里
有你的地方就有阳光
你总会在我身旁"---<总在我身旁>
4c2`o7=D
goldenbatch`o4o7<3333
OM`o6. WE ARE KINGS=P//iwanttostayinbbt.
11:25 AM
2:48 PM
"我好想忘掉 为何烦恼 对着天空大声的叫"--<下一次微笑>
my playlist just played this song, and it set me thinking alot, again. whats been happening to me all these while? seriously, i dont know. i just know that each day passes so fast that i didnt even realise january is already coming to an end really soon, until today. its 19th already, which means we're moving into february in less than 2weeks. thats very fast i thought, considering i accidentally wrote' 2007' instead of '2008' on one of my maths tutorial a few days back. okay, maybe its just me, since i've even written '2006' last dec. nonetheless, times been flying by real fast since last year...
the past 3weeks was full of ups and downs for me, for lily&eddy too i guess. and while i was trying to list out all the ups yesterday, the one down eddy listed shut me up. that was good enough to neutralise or even worse, overrule all the joy&fun. convo with liwei today was the best i reckon, since she understood me so well and gave me the chance to use mandarin. and after talking to her and listening to her problems, i felt so relaxed and relieved. not that she is worse off, but at least i know we arent the only ones. thanks liwei, you've always been there and i know you'll continue to be there. thankyou lots<33 msn convo with bell&jingyi set me thinking alot too, abt what exactly do i want for myself. though i know its quite useless to think abt it now but i cant help thinking abt it when b&j[=P] kept mentioning abt leaving and transferring and what-nots. jiayou pengyous, i knwo its hard to make a decision. but if you've alr set your mind on it and know you wont regret, im sure you'll make the best choice for yourselves<33 i feel like seeing them again, my clique, my twin, my pengyous, though i dont really want to go back to crescent next thurs/fri=/
"下次微笑 你会看到 我真心上扬的嘴角"--<下一次微笑>
12:48 PM
going back to crescent was a total joy. the feeling was exceptionally great. like one friend said,"i'd give up everything just to remain as a crescentian for one more day." sounds exaggerating, but quite true i guess((=
had 3lectures and a survey session today, which is, to me, a rather long day. econs was quite nice i suppose, since i can still rmb bits and pieces of OC,PPC and what-nots=PP physics was... yeah, but at least i knew what he was saying. and thankyou for asking huh=/ maths was quite slack, cos the lecturer spent almost the whole lecture proving formulas[which we arent required to do so in 'A's]. oh but he went through tut4, which wasnt a bad thing=)
fac dance was <333 we finished learning the whole dance today=DD ARTEMIS<33 went to watch apollo's fac dance after that, realised it was rather hard. with all the techniques and bodywaves...*shivers*
had quite a long talk with eddy after lunch outside the audi, at the platform area. talked abt the many things we used to enjoy and the many challenges we're facing currently. maybe its just our assumptions, but we do see the line drawn in between. maybe we're being too sensitive, but we do notice the difference. maybe the others dont think so, but we know. i guess she already made a decision as to where she'll be after next week. but im still stuck in between. a part of me tells me t stay, a part of me thinks i should find another place where i wont emo anymore. then again, the final verdict is not even out yet, i shouldnt even think abt it, at this very moment. i hope next week will be a happy one for me. or maybe im too greedy=/ i hope that particular day next week will be a happy one which is worth celebrating for, for all my loved ones and myself((=
//i think i want to be in bbt.
1:19 PM
"也许我太逞强
但是我无时无刻都在想 你的臂弯.."-- <力量>
finally i realise how much i miss crescent and how much i miss all the hugs. if there wasnt nicole and eddy today, i dont know what i'd do seriously.
lots of stuffs happened recently, or maybe just these few days, and my moods been swinging like mad. its like emo->hyper->crazy->upset->pissed->emotionless. its weird, and i hate myself for having all these rubbish within me. but i was still normal and hyper in front of my og&ct&all, so i thought it would be alright eventually. i thought. but that just did it and yes, i exploded, within me. shant elaborate cos it takes alot of courage to bring all that up again. oh well, pardon me=/
the feeling is so fantastic when you see "tong2 lei4"s, aka people that are wearing the same thing as you. you cant imagine how relieved and glad i was when i saw eddy and nicole, and when i talked to lily. love you people totally, and thankyou for all the hugs<333 okay, im just ranting and all. apologies.
"时光匆忙 不曾遗忘
随时可以回头看 那些时光
你在身旁 给我的温暖..."-- <力量>
many thanks and a big hug to all those who were there for me. you know who you are, and you know i really appreciate it lots. really.
//jiayou kj((((=
11:26 AM
TSKTSKTSK. jingyi texted and said its not friday anymore. and karen just confirmed it. OMG, whats wrong with rj? why did they play such a prank on their students, and the rest of us too? TSK x infinity.
oh well, other than the cheat-our-feelings incident, the only things i rmbed frm today were binomial, gossips and dance(((= maths was the first and last lecture of the day hahaha. i think the lecturer was mrs lim. okay, nvm abt that. but she was like gg so fast such that once you lose her, you cant catch up anymore. but maybe it was binomial, so she went like a fighterjet=PP and we were supposed to do tutorials 1,2,3. quote unquote howard:yay, i've got homework to do! ||| goshhh. hahaha=PP
spent the rest of the day walking around school, slacking with ct, crapping with og and making new friends. haha. apparently those were jihao&yixiao's friends so yeah(= oh, i think lt3 is my home hahaha, we're in there for almost all lectures and even the session with artemis ec was there too. so yeah, fated larh((=
fac dance session was at around 3+ but lbp just had to kajiao me, making me feel as though the world was spinning. like, why of all days you must visit when theres fac dance hahahah. oh well, went through 3.1 parts of the dance and it was okay i guess. and the dance was damn nice! just that i couldnt turn rounds well today=(( fac time ended at 5+ and tadah! reached home at 6 which is the earliest time i reached home since school started=PP hahaha.
6 is my favourite number<33
1:00 PM
apparently Os results are coming out on friday. THIS friday.*drops jaw* seriously, i wonder why hc didnt even announce, i wonder why laoshi didnt know, i wonder why there was nothing on the news and i wonder if rj just simply played a prank on the j1s=((
oh well, so todays the start of 'week3' in hc, and lectures started. chem lecture was okay, since it was like a refresher course on mole. i still rmb how chia used to drill us and force us to do all the mole questions in the tys, VA and pinkbook. so yeah, then AEAP was quite alright, but wasnt really concentrating on it due to some random stuffs. had our first econs lecture at 1pm, the kind of time when i usually feel most sleepy=P BUT. i stayed awake throughout the whole lecture kay and understood i guess=)
went for band trials at 3plus, after crapping with howard(!!) for a while. i thought it would be damn scary initially, but we were just told to warmup, stone/play some stuffs. but i realised i need to pract more, cos i sounded stuck[band terms=P] and the high notes were just...eeyer=(( so anyway, left the trials at 4plus and was dragged by cindy to buy coffee and toast.haha, met xiangmei along the way, and its so nice to have crescentians around you. yay((= oh, then found kangjie at my ct bench[i dont know why he is there=p] with weiguo and started crapping. and the most shocking thing they said was, i look and sound like cindy. i need to use this word again. PIANGS=P haha. no one in crescent said that before larh, and cindy was quite shocked too when she heard that. seriously, i DONT sound like her. maybe its just the crescentian way of speaking or sth. and weiguo said sth like, "crescent girls can roll their eyes very well." and my reaction was du-uh, roll my eyes at him. like wth?! its either you can roll or you cant roll, whats with the can-roll-very-well statement. hahaha, i think they are funny people. then cindy and i started crapping abt crescent and all, and i didnt know why we communicated in chinese. then kangjie&weiguo thought we were mad or sth. like pls, whats wrong with speaking chinese when we're in a chinese school hahaha=P
so after cindy left to chiong her work, ruiling and howard came over. so it became og crapping session. and i think howard really mugger larh, the moment he sat down, he took out his bio tutorial or sth and started doing. and he was so excited abt homework. goshh=/ and he was still saying kj was more muggerish than him. whatever howard, we know whos the real mugger hahaha=P oh after that yixiao came too! haha. and yixiao, i never dao you lorh. dont listen to kj, he is just trying to tiao3 po2 li2 jian1=P hahaha. so crapped for a while before heading home.
im feeling much better now, as compared to the sian+emo cheeshan yesterday. so yay, thankyou ruiling, howard and yixiao for all the joy=) thankyou cindy for the crescentian talk and just for sitting with me=) thankyou weiguo, though i didnt know what you were saying most of the time, your laughter sort of made me feel happy too=) and thankyou kangjie[didnt forget you kay=P], for all the msges and the free entertainment all these while, esp this afternoon=)))
i'll pray really hard for crescent, crescentians and chongers-cum-crescentians<33
11:28 AM
13012008.
man, 2weeks of "school" went by so fast. and theres more to come for the next two weeks i guess. lectures will start officially tml, meaning i have to start mugging real hard frm tml onwards. and i'll have to mug a hell lot harder than how i mugged for Os. really really hardcore mugging. shant say why, cause i want to cry no more.
apart frm that, theres band trials tml apparently. havent asked jiaying when shes gg. but for someone who hasnt even blew properly into her mouthpiece since last april, i think im so gg to screw up tml badly. ans as an ex-cgssbit, it will be damn maluating to screw that up. seriously. mrschua will kill me totally. to think i was still thinking of gg back on thursday. my juniors are oh-so-gg-to laugh at me=/ tsk tsk. shall pray really hard at night.
and apart frm that as well, Os results will be out on 24th jan tentatively. poor lily, what a nice 17th birthday gift cambridge is giving her. and it better be a really good one. the thought of results just makes me feel all weak and giddy. and i've been dreaming of getting really lousy results such that i even teared in my dreams. how stupid, but i wasnt the only one. oh yes, apologies to those i've been whining to all these while, namely liwei, pris, lily, eddy, yixiao, kangjie, kwangyueh, etc. i just needed to tell someone badly, so yeah, really sorry=(( hopefully after 24th, y'all will still see me in hc and i'll certainly give you guys ben&jerrys treat for whining all the time=P
oh well, maybe its just me, but i havent been feeling really great these few days, esp today. besides completing partial fractions tutorial successfully, theres nothing else im happy abt seriously. and if you're looking at my face now, you'll probably think im some dao kid who is so antisocial. sighh, i hope tml will be a better better better better better better better day. i very much wanted to laugh, but my diaphragm and cheek muscles are not co-operating=((
1:51 PM
HAPPY ONE WEEK MY DARLING OG25-MATES!!!!!<333
seriously, the past week was the best i've had so far, in terms of fun and joy. many thanks to ALL my ogmates&ogl for bringing us all the laughter. i wouldnt have survived the first week without you guys. THANKYOU. initially i thought i'd be dreading school and orientation. and the thought of making new friends just turned me off. but im so thankful that im in the best og in HC, with the funniest ogmates and of course, a wonderful ogl. yayness((((((((((((=
oh and we got 4th for og games! haha, the og25spirit=DD actually, times spent tgt as an og were really memorable and bang4. times like sitting tgt in the hall like prisoners[=P], playing the og games without even bothering abt our wet clothes, screaming our lungs out like theres no tomorrow, eating at various "highclass" places and simply crapping each time we gathered. those were the fun days, no worries, no books, no emo-ing(= yay, i love og25 to bits<333
so today we got into our cts for the very first time, and it was when i started to miss every single ogmate. my ct wasnt bad, ctmates were rather friendly and nice. but maybe cos im a non-ip student, so felt a lil' out of place at first. oh well, then decided og25 should meet for crapping session at kap. so asked around, but the turnout was a lil' disappointing i guess. and everyone had the thought that our og was gg to san4 really soon. many of us didnt say it, but we all know its gg to be like that one day. felt really really sad and when i saw clare, i very much wanted to cry. and tears were alr forming in my eyes alr larh. felt quite retarded but i guess everyone felt the same way too.
maybe we wouldnt have time for one another anymore after lectures start next week. maybe we wouldnt even see our ogmates in school due to the busy schedules. maybe we wouldnt even say hi to our ogmates cos we'll be busy mugging[=P] okay. maybe it wouldnt be that bad, but im sure we will not be as close as we are now. BUT. im sure if we stay united, we can always meet up and have dinners tgt, even until we graduate or sth. yay. i love og25, lots and lots and lots.
og25.TOGETHER.FOREVER.
1:23 PM
i realised i didnt mention anything abt 2008. so HAPPY 2008=DD
2008 is a new start for many people, primaryones, secondaryones and jcones as well. and, i wouldnt have said that if i wasnt part of the the above. so school started yesterday and simply by reaching home at 730pm everyday, you know how hectic jc life is, even when this is just the orientation period.
i think that hc, apparently my new "home"[temporary], has friendly people, since i sympathised with adel last night=P could actually feel a small sense of belonging after todays orientation. maybe because my og has really fun and nice people. og25(((= and yes, though jingyi and lily and angelia and i concluded that ______, i think my og is nice as a whole. oh yes, hc has lots of college songs. and most, if not all of them are in chinese. i cant imagine what mich will do if shes in hc[impossible though].
so tml theres this og outing for each og, supposedly hc's tradition. and it so clashes with crescent's orientation campfire. goshh, can you imagine how sad and lost i felt when i realised i didnt know where to go? tsk, why like that. i promised mich, liwei, jeanne, keon and cgssb-its that i'll be there on campfire night. and now, i dont want to break my promise. eddy&lily are equally troubled now i guess. like spend the first half with og and the second half with crescentians. haha, like we have aeroplane, jetplane or we can teleport. travelling takes TIME. and time is so precious tml evening+night. still have supper with clique`o7. ohmy, someone tell me what to do. i cant possibly skip og outing, and i DONT WANT to skip campfire. oh well, pardon me.
i hope tml will be an even better day. [and seriously, i think i've got a heatstroke or sth=(]