9:39 PM
ohh wellllll, todays like the 29th, which means may is coming veryveryyyy soon!! so one-third of 2oo8 is gone so quickly, sometimes it makes me wonder if i've grown a little more mature or gained a little more life experiences with each passing month. but i dont even have time to ponder over this ohmy=//
alright, "intellectual" stuff aside, i think todays a happy day=D hahaha yes, on a random tuesday, rather rare of me yes, but 'sectionals' rocked totally=) so sectionals was converted to horn-washing and maintenance=_= hehh, a bit lame when i heard abt it but it was highly amusing and entertaining=PP and people like irene, rujun and sean haha, trying to splash one another with water, chasing each other around the third level... hahaha, it just gives you stomach cramps hehh=PP well yes, childish and all, but i think tts what make my section one of the funn-est sections in the band isnt it(= oh then we were complaining abt freecone day because we had to stay at salt to wash the horns. and amazingly [well i was=P], sean actually went to buy us drinks larh OMG. hahaha, im not being mean or what kayy, just tt its just too nice of him hehh=P hahaha, thanks anyway, i was already dying of thirst by then=/
combined sports meet tmr, quite siann but come to think of it, no lessons lehh=) wheeee, and theres labour day which has to be used up to mug for chemtest and all=/ have to sacrifice my holiday for me&bell's special day, like du-uh=P
/rememberorwe'renofriends=P
9:23 PM
i wonder how many selfdeclared holidays i intend to give myself=// seriously, im losing steam.
convo-ing with adelene currently, and its affecting me rather badly. suddenly i figured all my close friends are emoing=/ i cant help but feel sad for them, and feel unhelpful at the same time cos i have absolutely no idea how to help!!=( all i can do is listen to her talk abt her school life, how much she doesnt want to be there, how unhappy she is... not only adelene, but people like jeanne and all. i dont like this feeling at all. its so arghhh, especially when my life is not exactly wonderful either. honestly, i think my joy is dependent on the my loved ones. i'll be happy too if they are, and i dont emo for very long cos they're always there to cheer me up. haiiii, i miss sitting down and simply talking about random things&people, instead of ranting everytime i see excrescentians=/ actually life is not tt bad. guess im just not used to times when i badly want to pour everything out but turn around to find no one there=/ ohwells.
/eachtimeiwonderifi'vemadethewrongchoice.
7:03 PM
I MISS LILYPHOAHUIXIAN LOTS=(( i know tts damn stupid cos we're just a wing away, but still, i totally miss having her around. and her tagreply didnt help : shann': i totally miss u like anything & i really feel like hugging u whenever im damn sad. i x3 u! haiii, i want chongers outing soon!!! and i want to have a longlonglonglonglong talk with her seriously=/ i dont care lily, we must find a day to talk SOON=((
oh well, on a lighter note, no more napfa for the next...12months?! haha yayy, goldd((= hehh yes, very normal for crescentians but i havent been exactly fit since after Os, so i consider it an achievement larh huhh=PP and i figured i am really unhealthy, sucks totally=//[dont ask me why, you'll know if you have to] okay, apart frm tt, today was normal, and im feeling so bad for not selfpracting... speaking of which, think we need to go support the tabletennis team[aka david&teammates] on wed, and theres band pract!! haii, shall ask if we could be excused. i mean i know its impt to give them our support, but concert's coming up in <1.5mths! so yeah, siann=/
ohh suddenly im feeling quite happy tt o4o5 is coming because many people are volunteering to celebrate with me=DD ohh but there're 2tests on 5th, aiyah heckkk=|| and theres bday lunch on 10o5 with twin, adel and jeanne=DDD yayyayyay(((=
/你就像天使一样给我依赖给我力量. thankyou you,you&you<333
8:43 PM
messy messy messy week=//
i am feeling super drained now. i've yet to spend even 10awake hours at home for the past three days and workload is increasing by the day=( whats worse, im feeling rather brainless now because i cant really register information properly. ohmy, i desperately need to sleep and recharge!!!!! ARGHH.
oh yeah, before i forget.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WEIHAN&YINGJIE<333
speaking of which, huilee just reminded me tt o4o5 is in two weeks' time, wow=// im dreading it actually, since it might end up being like any other o4o5 over the past 10years, mugging for tests=(( i hope twinn doesnt have tests the following week, its gg to be quite pathetic=/ OH WELL.
and now i need a big and empty rubbish bin for me to rant. call to signup hehh=P RANTRANTRANTRANTRANT=// hmmm, more like i just feel like talking abt random issues=P
7:17 PM
HAPPY SYF ANNIVERSARY CGSSB<333
its raining today, like how it did this very day last year. but i was really proud of us, and still am even till today(= i really want to relive tt very moment again, the 15minutes on stage. the feeling was simply... awesome(= and i havent had tt same feeling since then. ohwell, I♥CGSSB, esp batch`o7<333/i just want to be a happy little kid before i turn 17. a truely happy one to be exact.
9:39 PM
im all tired and drained. my energy level is like going lower as each day passes by, and my brain is starting to malfunction=// i so hate this feeling, and i hate gg through things which werent supp to concern me in the very first place. troubled troubled=| and theres preUinterview this friday, which means i have to get out of school before ct and come back before combine pract. fridays were meant to cheer people up, but i forsee a scary friday ahead=// haiiiiii.
oh my, my head is throbbing like mad now. think my vessels are gg to burst very soon due to excessive thinking of unwarranted issues. eew, im starting to sound weird=( haii, i feel like screaming now but having my family around doesnt seem to help. and i wanted so much to vent, but i just couldnt bear to blast on the horn this afternoon=/ i was totally on the verge of tears when mrleng was gg on abt tuning and all, i have no idea why=//
apart frm me, my fellow chongers encountered some other problems too and it just so had to happen at the same time! goodness, whats wrong with week4 man, its like happy, sad, troubled, screwed, lost, happy, emo, tired, sian, sian, dead. haii, i really want to help them and help myself too, but i suddenly cant come up with any feasible solutions[sounds pw=//] unlike how i used to be able to so back in crescent. haiii, i.feel.like.killing.something. or maybe i should just kill myself.
tsk cheeshan, when have you become so useless and unstrong and emo-y=((
9:37 PM
busybusybusy me=/
into t2w4 alr, and there're so many deadlines to meet omg. tou2 tong4!!!!=( but managed to squeeze out PI just half an hour ago so phewww, tts one down=)
jts at marche on saturday. think i spent like 40bucks=/ oh no, at this rate im gg to lose all my Os incentives very fast hahaha. and there're still people whom i promised to treat hehh=P oh well, its okay, can always save up yay((= and i concluded tt beef is not my kind of food, i think i left like 1/4 of it untouched, quite wasted actually=// and the guys were totally stalking me and jingyi when we tried to siam frm watching movie. they insisted tt we kept 'ninja'ing off and kept chanting, "go watch movie, go watch movie.." like broken taperecorders larh. its so arghhh, but quite funny also=PP
and there're many things coming up this weekend, which is not exactly good. and i think 12th is seriously an auspicious day or sth, so many things happening!! there marchingbands syf, section outing, OM ltp and all. i dont know which one to go for!!!! i want to watch OM so badly larh, and plus michelle is acting too and we must support crescentjuniors! haii, but section outing is equally impt too cos we must bond hahaha. eeyer, i shall go toss a coin later=/ and theres sao3 mu4-ing on sunday, and family gathering=DD wheeeee, happy me but means i'll be screwed for mathtest=/ haii, no time to mug for it anyway since band is like top priority now=|
before i forget,
CAPRICCIO`2oo8
30o5o8, 1930hr
Victoria Concert Hall
- all crescent hornists must go=PP
- all bffs and besties must go, hehh=PP